This (en)Light(enement)

Florida.
Hot, Buggy, Dirty. Wonderful.
Something Happened while I was there. I was Blown Wide Open as soon as I stepped off the airplane.
I had no agenda. I only was there to hold space, and speak if I was asked.
And I was Asked. So much so that I couldn't sleep, even though I was so tired. I relayed the questions the Universe wanted presented, and they were well received.
I am grateful.
This experience changed my life.. it changed my perspective on who I am.
I am a child of the Universe, a conduit for my fellow carbon Unit encased Souls. I have always felt this. This was brought full circle, closed and sealed as truth while I was with my family.
Now, I am waiting to see where it is going to take me. I have inklings of what to do, little insights on things to prepare, as though gathering pieces of a puzzle, so that the Universe can show me how they are put together so I can see the big Picture.
I am grateful for this.
Something I have noticed, is that I am standing in my knowledge much more now, Bringing the truth of my own ways into life daily and circumstances. I never really spoke the things before, for fear of not being understood, and also for not being able to form thoughts-to-words. But they are now there, and they are coming out as norm for me. 
Lordy I hope people can understand me...
I am grateful to be a conduit, I am here to do the work, I am blessed with this gift.
Amen.

This I AM.... Archers and Angels.

Been at home with my family... in Florida now. With the Death of my sister, we all made the time to come together. It is strange to see the changes... however.
Some things come back around.. Like connection. That spark that is in understanding of things once engulfed. I am blessed to know that the depth of my soul brother Archer is still in the shell. There was time I mourned the loss of the icy flow of Blue and Black...
Strange to see the fear of the other... the male fish.. fear of rejection-by-confirmation. That one will turn to apology in time... and as always I will outstretch loving embrace for bruised soul and ego..
I indulged in Teal Water and White Sand.... Manifestation one- CHECK!
I am loving the newness of beautiful expansion.
Something that is interesting to me is that I am in a place, position, of guidance for others... others who once illuminated my own path, and held out hands when I had no light or direction, I now hold the Light for them... Wonderful new ground to tread upon. New found power within self... If I can guide those who once Guided me, I have stepped up... I am in a space of ... (hopefully not ego...) but now solid knowing of what my gifts have become...
I AM.
Archers and Angels.
A path of Rivers and Mountains, Dry Dust and Moons Full.
Ego and Humility
Riches and Poverty, Illusions and Truth.
This Path of consistants Growth fighting stagnation.
The things are not ever surface, there is so much beneath.
Watch, wait, listen,
scream to the sky!
Dance in the shine, gather the pieces, keep moving.
Still in the flow of the Universe I stand,
Swirling all around, twirling dancing, flying jumping.
Feeling with Fingers of Souls....
That cage My soul held behind, Broken free, Soar!
Stand tall, own the things and gifts.
Own the Scars and Sores.
Own the Light and Dark
Color the Ways and Means
always know all is possible- IMPossible= I'M Possible- all.
The Trail never ends, the wonders never cease... this glitter glamoury, solidity, liquid state...
This - Me, The I AM the ETERNAL Yes.
Walk.. Walk on.. standing tall. Knowing.. yes.

This Trip has done my soul so well, i can feel the power that has been the I AM surfaced again. Grateful for that. Grateful for this. Immersed, Engulfed, Entwined and Melded.
<3
 

Upstaging?

So.. I look at stuff like this. I see it much, going around Facebook and on Pintrest. I see it on the inspirational emails I get in the mornings, and on Seth Godin's Blog. In life situations in business and personal.
Be More.
Do Better.
Rise Above.
Go Beyond.

.....and my thought is this- jeezzus, AGAIN? Like, How many times can I do this?
and I'm serious.
I have been actually, for the first time in my life wondering- How the HELL do I top THIS?
Let me see if I can explain this- (it's late at night and I am sleepy... must..form...thoughts....)
See, I came from very little by American Standards. I lived in the poor part of town, I grew up dumpster Diving. Went through my mother's addictions and death, ... on and on. Turmoil.
But. I did complete High School. Excellent. And I did put my brother through High School. Okay. While I had legal custody of him, at age 20. Me. 20... Him 16. Oh.. okay.
Life... details... things... experiences.
Anyways. Fast Forward. New Hampshire. Present Day. Age... 35.
Single Mother. Business Owner. Community Supporter.
.... from scratch. No business loans, no business education, no .... anything.
Was gifted help in the first year via a few start up items. Then, Run with it... and keep going. Why? Because some people work at burger king while their children are raised by a day care... me? no. It's take your child to work day- every day. More like 'take your life to work day' - every day.
I work in the spiritual field. In more ways than one. I do a LOT of stuff... things people take for granted, on a daily basis. Things that we, in American Society, take complete un-notice of... on a moment by moment basis. Details. "its All In the Details"... But I do them.... clean rug? Yep. Me. Tea Brewed? Yep. Me. Laundry washed. Yep. Me. Child off to school and 'worm-bin-day' accomplished. yep. me. Show Gardens Weeded. Yep. Me. Class researched, printed, scheduled, ran. Yep. Me. Sidewalk shoveled. yep. me. Animals fed and cleaned. Yep. Me.
Details. every .....single.....day.
..... And I see these posts saying - TOP IT ALL!
WTF??? Seriously?!? Is that even POSSIBLE anymore? There have been times where I have realized I just CANNOT fit ANY more into my day- even if I WANTED to ! It is not POSSIBLE. I don't have the time, energy or even thought process to do what I use to be able to. 10 years ago I would work from 3p.m. to 2 a.m. and was great at it. I cleaned houses on the side! now? I can't even clean my OWN house as well as I would like to.
The biggest thing for me in this whole top-yourself-silly thing is that I have an entire community of people - a whole genre of spiritual seekers counting on me every day... I cannot afford to do less than my best- even when I absolutely do NOT want to. I have to be on my A-Game all of the time.
I guess my rant here is just about doing my personal best.
....And I can say, I absolutely have risen to the occasion, and I carry 110% of the responsibility of the goodness of doing my best...
I am always working on my self, and I think it is high time to pat myself on the back, and say- Dawn, damn good job. You have done it. Good work!! You did it!
:)