chickens and sky

so then there's this...
It's something that, like traveling, I won't get excited about until I step foot on the property... but. I am starting to voice it-
Scott and Terry have given me care-taking of the house and land out sycamore road for the next 8 years.
I will have a 4 bed 3 bath 'house' (we built it from two trailers way back when), and 4 acres to myself and Maggie, for minimal rent and utilities.
It is heated with a woodstove.
It has a little greenhouse.
I can have my chickens.
It is on well water.
It abuts forest land.
It is my most favorite place on earth.

I am in shock.

I am excited for it.

I want it all to hurry up and happen.

We are waiting to see when the renters that the current care takers put in are moving out. Then, Josh an I will go out and see the land, assess the house and make sure all things are livable. Depending on time and weather I will split my time between my current rental and the new house, riding out the lease while I get the new house ready.

I have wanted this house for all of my life, and not because of some materialistic 'this house is so beautiful' idea... because it is home, because I am in love with the land, because I am in love with the sky. This is home, and it is where I learned what family is. This place has a feel, and a smell to it.. of home. A scent that a few times over the course of the time I have been away I have gotten whiffs of and it has brought my soul great peace... from thousands of miles away.

and now, even though I don't want to get excited because of the fear of it not happening, I get to go home.. I get my own home, for 8 springs, 8 winters, 8 birthdays and Yule seasons...
..... and chickens. I get to have chickens.
I will finally be able to put my appothecary back together, and get all of my supplies back. I will carve spoons and have a potters wheel and kiln. I will teach and grow food.
Magic will be in it's correct place.....

feet

I feel like i am finding my feet again in this life lately.
I guess it really *is* single life that does me so well. i knew it before, but it just shows with the centeredness in me that its a truth.
i am very much enjoying my valley lately, the way the clouds play with the hills and mountains.. the shadows and light. Changing seasons do me well.
I do look forward ot the solitude of living alone one day, (well, with maggie)
and yes, i know it is because i have that choice.
life has been being... life. and that is okay.
i am getting caught up on things and working towards my goal of having my truck running great. Maggie is healthy as am I, things are all base of good.
And yes, I would like to keep it this way.
Thanks ;)

Light walking.

there are days... when my existence is so surreal. When what I see in the sidebar vibration is almost unbelievable.
But it is real. The conduit exists.
And I am grateful for it.
For all of what it is worth.. I appreciate it.
For Fadgie
For Artie
For Zeke
Those are only the recent ones.. but they are there and they are strong.
Some are there to change my view, to bring pictures clear. Some are there to help others in ways I cannot grasp, and some are just there.
I gladly accept the burden of the unknown and make it known.
I have known it was my job since mid teen age years.
I collect souls.
It is what I do.
..and the universe hands me what to give them.

...don't ask me, I'm just improvising.




And he made the impression on me. A lasting mark that never fades. He gave the measure to all of those after him, and not one can fill the shoes- not one can stand as tall.
And so forever this way I walk, grateful for the lessons, being molded to this light-walking-carbon.

research...

Doing some research (helped rite along by the Universe of course... always being helped by the Universe)...

"Melancholy
The second subject I want to discuss is the difference between depression and melancholy.  The latter is an old fashioned word, nowadays, and when it is used it is often mixed up with depression.  This is important in both Chinese and Greek medicine, where emotions are associated with organ systems and paid much attention to from a clinical diagnostic standpoint.  Depression proper comes from a loss of something.  Friendship, love, the ability to spend time with or communicate with a person.  Money, valued possessions, emotional important possessions.  It is related to grief and it is associated with the lungs.  The heaviness of grief falls upon the chest.  Melancholy, on the other hand, is not a form of depression per se, but a type of brooding or pensiveness where one is locked up within oneself, within the imagination.  One broods, turns over thought again and again in the imagination.  The melancholic is stuck in their imagination; can’t think their way out, can’t think of a solution to their problem.  This causes them to be too introspective, introverted, and cut off from the world.  We don’t use the word “melancholy” too much anymore.  The closest thing we have in modern English is the concept of “artistic funk.”  The artist can’t imagination another great work of art, can’t imagine how to be creative."

Matthew Wood, MSc (Herbal Medicine), Registered Herbalist (AHG)

 

"Herbs are incredible tools to help facilitate our healing process both physically and energetically. However, it is even more important to do our best to explore the deeper causes behind depression. Past trauma is often an issue, as is living one’s life primarily from a mental perspective and/or based on fear rather than living in the moment, following our heart, and connecting with and living in alignment with our life’s purpose. For most of us, much of our stress, anxiety and depression results from stories we tell ourselves which are often out of proportion with our actual life situations. Buying into the consumerist dogma and slaving away to accumulate material possessions, or being on call 24/7 via cell phones, text messages, Twitter, Facebook and all our other social networking addictions, which create an illusion of connection while actually distracting us from our real life that is right in front of us, also creates more stress and disconnectedness in our lives that can contribute to depression. We need time to just be quiet and present, free of the sensory overload that consumes so much of our lives. Connection to nature is also necessary for our well-being, as is good quality relationships with our fellow human beings. On this level counseling and various meditation and other disciplines that help us to live more in the present and develop a deeper level of self-awareness are often an important part of the healing process; as is spending more time in nature."

Michael Vertolli, Herbalist, Director of Living Earth School of Herbalism