Caribbean

I have to be some where soon, but I want to write this out- I want to be in the tropics. It apparent. I am in love with the Caribbean. Mainly brought forefront due to the Pirates of the Caribbean movies and the fact that I have family and friends in Florida and The Islands...
I can go any time.
Just sayin'

so what is this time?

I have been in this place for almost 2 months now.
Things for me are getting better.
I am no longer sad.. now I have energy to do things. I am grateful for that.
Today went by very fast. I am enjoying my alone time.. I always have. It has always been that I am a solitary person. heh and yet.. here I am. Family situation. Waiting for the whateverness of it to be what it is. Some moments yes some moments no. All moments chance and learning adn watching and weighing.
I have learned to knit in the past week. A simple stitch, but its nice. Its good to have a start. progress.
People more and more are asking me for products. My work space is 75% ready. Tomorrow I may have time to finish it.
I need to re-register my Domain Name. I will.
Fairy things. Candles, necklaces, food, teas... all kinds of good things.
Waiting for spring.
Maggie is home, watching TV..... shes funny.
yep, I have not much profound to say, save for loving being wrapped in a warm wool blanket.. knowing Snow will start soon. Waiting on the RLSGC Meeting at 7.
me. Sprouts. thoughts. Bread. Love. Inspiration. Peace. Joy. Soul. Fish. Eggs. Baskets. Canning. Sunshine. Birds. Surfing. Dreadlocks. Bubblegum. Good music. Food. Colorful things.
Yea..
Me Now.

Fly Away....

Today, in the dense fog and winter landscape of New Hampshire I dream of flying away. I dream of tropical water destinations and Happy Hippie Surfer Life. I dream of dirt and Spoons.
The walls of this place are so confining some days, and yet amazingly blissful others.
Today, I want to go to the ocean. I want to smell the salt water and know this ocean is connected to all oceans. There is a piece of my places in this cold water.
I want today to remember I am free. I am of whatever I choose. I do not have to remain as is. I can Be, Do and Have all experiences and Joy I choose.
What do I choose? Sunshine, Travel, Happiness.

I want to make an abundance of money carving wooden spoons. How absurd and wonderful it would be to be rich off spoons! I love this idea! to be able to travel to the Maldives, BoraBora and Hawaii on the pretense of wooden spoons!   

   

a Beautiful Drizzly Saturday.

Today, there are a million things I should be doing...laundry to be folded, boxes to stress over unpacking, vacuum to be cleaned and ran.. but I sit here enjoying a breakfast of left over enchiladas and coffee and reading a nice article about "walking Water" which reminds me of my loved past and even more anticipated future.. read the short article here-
Walking Water Article...
I enjoy this morning particularly because my heart is light, I have no real stress (unless I dream up some.. like the fact that i am missing the School Budget Committee Meeting)
I feed my little bird friends, dream up ways of being sustainable and enjoy my spurt of inspiration via life.
I uber enjoy the quiet in the mornings, and this morning is nice for it. The weather outdoors is mild, and the atmosphere indoors is nice and warming.
So.. with that I browse Seed catalogs, Mother Earth News, Look at Grow Lights (plotting indoor window gardens of tomatoes) and think on the wonders of reusable and sustainable things (greenhouses made of re purposed off cast windows).
Yes.. its a green thumb day. in the midst of a dreary winter day. :) And my heart is happy.
and since i can't find the perfect picture of what i would like to aspire to.. I'll just say - more windows please !!

Winter's Little Helpers

Birds. Birds at my make-shift feeders. My little routine of feeding them in the mornings is so nice. I enjoy seeing the different species and hearing them twitter away. I even stood outside this morning to watch them... in silence.. just watching and listening to bird song in the distance. The make a big mess, but it's a small price to pay for being able to see life.
Sun shine is great too. :) Sunshine and Birds.
BTW.. I'm glad 2012 is over.
*sigh*

Sun and Sand

This car reminds me of a distant past... And a spark in soul.

Today, I am itching to be a Surfergirl.


I have always been fascinated with The culture, the style, riding waves freely.. the water.
I really should learn to surf. Sarah can teach me.
I also love homeness... Like, plants. Wooden furniture... almost a 1970's earth house.
But back to surf.
Surf shops, Boards, Clothing, amazing beaches...
Yes. This is my mind.

Follow the Sun...

And Vision Boards to long forgotten. I am interested in them again.. just to surround myself with the amazing things I want to be part of. Maybe I should get my ass in gear, earn shit tons of money and go traveling. Yep. Thats what I want to do.

Ha! Yep. There ya go... I will go to places like Tahiti, BoraBora, Hawaii, Ireland, Finland, Seattle, Florida.... and so many more.

Yep. Me,them, us.... heh.

..

There is no one way to make herbals medicine. There is not a 'right way' and a 'wrong way'.
Pretty profound.
I am seeing that my own rigidity could be a downfall. There are things that will get you better results than others - but no one thing is the be all end all.
Not that I want to be an herbalist.. but when making things, there are more ways than to set things in the sunlight for a month.
Thats all for now...

Different Strings...

 

Different Strings...

Thinking today about Gratitude. Today is a beautiful day, so different from yesterday. I enjoy the workings of this Universe... this Multiverse. There truly is nothing solid, we just think there is when we indulge in things, when we loose ourselves in these moving pictures, these things we come up with for our experiences.. 

Today, The sun shines outdoors. This seems to make my mood better, as well. 

I think often to my Desert Days.. to the times that were spent in the stark sun, to the beginnings of it all, to the wind and the days of wandering. They color my life a pale yellow and white. They set the stage for the rest of my days- They are a comparison point. Though I have to remember not out loose out on my here and now's, for in these moments new energetic remembrances are made.

After A while of being removed form the past 3 years, the crash-course of learning that has happened in those times will be added to the satchel at my hip. I will be able to draw from it in my work. These new times, the times of WildDen will for sure be a beautiful set in my life. I know that there is much wonderful things to be done from this spot. Much learning, much good experiencing, many things to solidify the workings of the Universe. The 'Magic' that is energetics and intention will be alchemically proven here time and time and fun time again. ;)

Presently, Snow Dog is abounding in the outside world- but spring will come and the doors of the Den will be opened to the Green Fae. Beautiful. All things.

Onto and Into the bounding and leaping in this 'life-time' I go.

woot!~

So.
All this stuff. These events. How beautiful they are. They are re-memebering me back to soul.
They are re-minding me of the truth of self and continuum.
~I raised the money to go see The Brother of my Soul.
-2 days
-11 people
-$600.00
Done.
~My grandfather died. About a week ago.. we just found out last night.
This is an ending of an era. For the aunts and uncles, it stages a solid close to their books of pain and confusion. They can now move on in ways they never could before. For me, it is only memories, of a garage and workshop and puppies and treasures found. With him goes history, however. History I wish I knew. History of family and heritage. Gone.
~My brother's divorce was finalized yesterday. This is not of me, however, it is around me. A thing long in the necessary making. It is unfortunate that he now shares in the experience of such a thing, things I have done twice. Something I hope I never experience again. A thing that will most likely prevent me from the beginning... to begin with. Bit, that is another soul story. I am sure it will hit one party involved hard and sad, and the other slightly released and let out of worn.


Onto other business.... Creation. I sit here, at my new space and wish for my herb cabinets, which are in the garage. I want to create- I would create a ton, if i had them... so. Why don't i have them? The path between the basement and the garage is... covered in almost 2.5 feet of snow. hard crusted heavy snow. That needs to be shoveled- in 9 degree weather. Yuck. (being a Finn, one would think I would be all good doing this... But I hate cold.) So, suck it up, I will. Don the Artic snow boots that Lynette Gifted me, bundle up tight and go out and shovel. For the sake of creativity. I will have the help to move the stuff, I just have to get it all ready. :) And as of late, I totally have the drive and Inspiration to CREATE!!! :D
(Also, We have been watching Dual Survivor and it is reminding me of my roots, and I LOVE IT!!! OmG... so much!! Collecting water, using resources, solar heat... man. so awesome)
okay, me out!

This is me... in natural environment of Desert Riparian Habitat in Sycamore Canyon. 

Us

So, I am working to get to my other half- my Brother.
I don't talk about him much, because he is so precious to me.. my heart aches when I think of him too much. He is my other soul half.
.........
I want to write about him... I want to make others know how It is, how we are, but there is no way. There is nothing that can be said to relay the deep and heavy connection.
It is as stories untold...
There are underground hidden rivers, lit by holes reaching to green emerald forest above... In these caverns we stand, on the edges of magic waters, watching what energy mass consciousness' imagine happening in their own preconceived time-space continuum - never knowing they are their own creators. We watch, standing robe-cloaked, leaning on our time worn staves, sometimes laughing, sometimes crying, sometimes angered, all times loving those who know no better. We touch lives, we, graced with given knowledge. All to unknowing, unaware carbon units walking.
We wander this land, wind picking up caliche behind Desert feet, moss quieting steps of Northern Footsteps...
We watch. We wait for understanding. Standing side by side we wander this world within worlds. We jump time and space, set fortress, and move on. We breathe in the stars and release fire breath. Hand in hand we watch birds soar and rocks crumble, we wander through events and passing time.
This.. One soul, two bodies. Multiple Life Times...

New

So, New Years' - a block of time. So, a block of nothing, really.
Really?
No, not really. It is a set-point- a block of something made, something made by carbon unity walking souls to experience their own reality.
Time.
Space.
Events.
And what of this new standard set-point? What of this new solid time-space thought?
This year.
So much to be grateful for that was removed from the last set point - the major cause of friction and hold-back is gone. I am now a free woman-soul.
This 'year' - these next 365 days. Expanse of daylight and moonshine... 'days'.
What shall be done? What are my personal goals set to accomplish? Goals are mere reflections. They are anticipated events and tasks to complete done to experience our limitations, to see where our boundaries lie, and to see where we can push beyond.
Experiencing this walk, this time-space is only bouncing off of set perimeters and using learned tools to maneuver around or through set-point 'blocks' or 'walls'. We have set limits to define our experience. to give meaning to the "I AM" and the great "IS". otherwise, there is no-thing. Only ALL. All can experience its entirety via breaking apart into pieces and creating contrast and limiting thought, in order to play a game of sorts- to find the way back to ALL One-ness.
Become the pieces to remember the whole.

So... this year.
This year What Do I Want to experience?
ART. I want to experience creativity of paint, color, water to illustration board - I want to see vast expanses of landscape dreams in vivid colors set to solid surface via medium of flow.
KNOWLEDGE. I want to learn. I want to learn the forest mushrooms. I want to learn self-sufficient living through canning, knitting, and sewing.
TRAVEL. I intend to travel to many places this coming year. I want to take Maggie to Florida and to Arizona and Boston.
FINANCE. This year- being of full freedom, I intend to become financially free! My plan is to create wonderful things from my heart center and share them for sale. I will have ample financial income, which will feel SO good.

This new 'time block' - a goal setting limit breaking awesomeness. and ME.