Rite.

Yea.. I for sure don't want to be doing this.. again. I don't want these expectations even though it is said they are not there. they are. don't lie, and don't try to hide them.. even from yourself. I was there the day it sank in- it's a repeat. I've been here before. I have already lived through someone else's drama and serious fuck up. I don't have the trust for another issue. It has been said that every one deserves a second chance, hell, I have had so many myself. Maybe I used yours up.. who knows. I do know however, that since I have already lived through it, I am not the one who has seconds to dish out.. I'm sure someone who hasn't been where I have been has such things. You probably didn't mean to throw the atmosphere into such turmoil, and I for sure didn't mean to let it all get so far before knowing all the truth, all the facts that would have me backing off. I'm so sure that you didn't mean to pre-set this situation, but you did.. sorry. And I can't get past it, It's my life.. don't you forget.. it never ends..
I may be cool, I may shine like the brightest star in the heavens. But I have my bruises and I have my boundaries and the learnings have been scarred into my skin- like burns and cuts. It is said Leopards don't change their spots.. no matter how many guildings they may have. Renn Boy or not.. The key isn't to this lock. Not much else to say About it.
yep.
And I know you have self preserving to do as well. Good luck out there.