heh. So, I was going to do some gratitude journaling, with an inkling of just writing, but i spilled my coffee all over my journal, granny's cedar chest and other various things (hope the phone still works!) so. I will write here.
I will write about Pinterest and how it inspires me. I will write about taking another day off. I will write about bread making and life changing.
.... Inspiration. for surely looking at Pinterest is like a huge choice-letting vision board. I get to scroll around through thousands of ideas that other people have gathered, decide which ones I like, and collect them. I get to learn how-to's and adjust my inner being to feel wonderful. Boy do I get lost on there. But it's really great.
I took today off. I decided I would like to have another day to do house-y things. I want to bake 4 more loaves of bread, and freeze them. I would like to strip the bed clothes and wash all of them. I want to sort out my kitchen cup boards. The tedious things are already done- laundry, dishes..
I still have a tiny piece of sneaky feeling going on for not going into the shop. I am trying to loose it in the dust. It wont go away till like 1 or 2.
It's there, because i know it is a privilege to own a shop, to open doors and be there for people. I know I support a community and they expect and look forward to me being in a certain place at a certain time. I know that I am a very lucky person, and I should always take 110% advantage of that gift. But you know what? Taking another day off kind of IS like taking advantage of the situations and gifts. Sure, it may be off-putting to a person or two (hopefully they forgive me), but I am not going to loose my job over it. I can go in tomorrow and lay claim, to my own ways of being. I am fully responsible. And that is a good thing for me. In knowing it is my own place, my own time, i am laying claim to my actions, as well as rewarding myself. Its like Taking an extra day off reminds me of what I have, how I do in my daily life, and allows appreciation for what I have. Today, I will catch up on the neglected things I, even with days off, can never seem to get to.
(my only fear is going outside to the laundry mat in daylight- haha! someone will catch me! maybe I will change the sheets, and wash the dirty ones after 5 tonight ;) HAH!)
so.. Bread. I am looking forward to making more bread.
Also, something I am noticing in my life is that I dont seem to need so much clutter. I am wishing I had some boxes up here today, pack up some random stuff so I have more room. Sneaking down for boxes may be in order, however. of course... I could pile all the extra on my dresser... and pack it up in between laundry loads ;)
haha. such a silly way of being. guilt. But acknowledged and giggled at.
So, I am grateful to have an A/C unit in my apartment. The air is fresh and cool in here today, while out doors it is yucky, muggy and hot.
Well.. I guess thats all. I'll go do things now :D
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