I have been in a state of almost lost mode. Ruck-Sack thought process, of what now? I really don't know, I am just trying to keep my feet under me.
I had a job interview yesterday with Spectrum, the company I worked for a year ago, Good pay, steady work, will really be helpful in life presently.
I work at an inn, in Sedona rite now. It is a great atmosphere, and I really like it, I need more hours and closer to home presently, hence the interview. But, if i don't get the corporate gig, at least I still have something.
I am very much looking forward to having my truck in tip top shape soon. That is a prime directive.
I want to do much outdoorsness this summer, I may take some treks while Maggie is away. And probably even more when she returns. She goes to NH in the next few weeks.
Then there is life. My experience. I could reitterate about how I have been physically feeling very poorly, and about how I have been rather lost, but continue on. I could talk about my lack of ambition and inspiration, and how I feel rather empty... but what good would that do? So. I have decided to exclude all the things that make me feel poorly in my life, and hope that looking to include the things that would make me feel good, will bring about joy and inspiration.
Maggs and I played at the river for 4 hours yesterday without even knowing it. We had a great time. I watched my nephew last night while my sister went out on the town, and that was good.
Today, I have some herbal work to do, and then I will again go to the river. That will be good. I really want to go up on the mountain, but am unsure about the drive. I may just chance it.
I have a feeling I will be doing better in the next few days, as I eliminate more negativity.
I quelled much of my stress points by ignoring the root of them, and doing what I can as I can.
I am doing what I know I have always appreciated in my previous life line, like having Jazz playing and making my house smell good...
I feel like I could hibernate for 10 years and then would feel refreshed though. I never feel rested, and My body is so heavy much of the time. It will change. Maybe I need to go on a raw diet for a while...
anyways. Life. I am alive, I think I will make rent this month, and I am directing myself to a better path of things that I want in life.
so. yea. those things.
Oh, and I went to Bailey Co. this past weekend with the new brother Eric and Maggie. I am so glad things turned out the way they did leading up to leaving for the trip, because Erica and I really got in some Bonding time. It was really good to see the family, especially Jackie.
Maggie did well on the trip. I like Bailey... reminds me of a more westernized New England of sorts. All I could think of was John Denver... of course.
Me.. how I want to be....
Me, Where I want to be....
My time of year....
How I feel.
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