2017

This new year will see many changes and upkeep for me. I have decided to start this time with better feet forward. I have done so much in life, that I know I am so capable of anything. At this point in life, having learned all I have, I only have decisions.
I am so very grateful for my knowledge and experience in this lifetime, and I have, in a way spent the past year sliding by on my own way of being. I acknowledge that, and choose to come back to my standing joy, my open eyes and set joys for myself. I give myself permission to come past what I perceive as wasted time and energy and be at peace with my understanding gained in this time.
It is okay to be something in order to learn more about yourself.
With this new year I welcome a good lifeset. I draw into my own self and build solid foundations and a beautiful house of life for myself and in turn those I care about. I take a deep breath from the clean winter air, and exhale all of the past depressions and lulls. I release all of the sluggish neglect and sharp painful hot anger. I breathe out resentments and expectations. I inhale fully clean, clear singing air, and feel it vibrate silver and blue with my own energetic setpoint, igniting sparks of clean beautiful energy within me. I feel the vibrations like a thousand beautiful stars within my chest emanate outward to my limbs while my soul feels cleansed and refreshed. I leave behind the heavy muddled past year's cryings, carryings of heavy baggage of others wounds I could not heal. Those things I took on as my own issues only to find none of them are mine. I became akin to others stories to the point of sorrow and I no longer am willing or able to do such things. So these things I release within these exhaled breaths. As vapors of warm breath meet icy air they crystallize and fall to the snow covered ground- they will melt with the spring thaw, being given back to soil earth to be healed and reworked into joy of blossom and warmth.I no longer fight dense thickets of confusion, instead I smile in winter sun, knowing that spring thaw will come and until then, enjoy the beautiful songs of bird friends and changing landscapes under Lady Winter's blanket of freeze and melt.
I no longer accept neglect of my own soul, I no longer accept disrespect of my own way of being and knowing being ignored. I walk an ancient path of wisdom that now, in my oncoming 40th year I will walk and claim as my truth and birthright earned even more via the years of wandering. My 40th year is one of standing tall, doing things that bring my soul beautiful contentment and joy. This ear and eye filling way of living brings my soul to full expression of magical good and beauty. I am happy in this, like a song and scent of forest I stand within these amazing enchantments called life experiences and smile. This is the best year in so very long. And I am grateful