Life.
The past year has been contemplative and quiet. But maddening and angering. I’m getting to the point where I can’t stand men. I find toxic masculinity in more places than not. I find the squelching of woman in most places. Commercials, advertising, comments, the work place. Over and over again. I’m angry. I feel like I have a war path in my soul most days. I’ve had let down more than I would have liked in this life. I think my heart is now literally broken. I don’t know if I have the capabilities to even love a man anymore. I could live out life having a domestic female partner that just lived with me and we did life. Easy. Men. They lie. They give up on life. They’re lazy and selfish. Even the good ones that supposedly understand and are enlightened have their false floors. I’m numb. This life has been so long. And I feel like I need a long sabbatical. I want a reset.  Clearing. Opening to allow in the things that will clean out the mud in my soul.
Life. I’m not okay with this way. New paradigm is in order.