thanksgiving day.

so, it's thanksgiving day. a stupid made up holiday.
I use to very much enjoy holidays. I dont understand why we have to have a holiday based on food... wait. Feasting days.
Harvest days.
That makes more sense. When you grow your own food and harvest it all, and the stuff that wont store, creating a huge feast. Now, that is a Holiday.
Thanksgiving is a made-up stupid thing about Pilgrims that have nothing to do with me. Whatever.
Yesterday was a very difficult day. Too small a space, too much force.
Today will be better.
I wish I could change perspectives on my energetic stuff. I wish things were different for me.
I am the one who can make them this way.
Praying for today.