This day.

So, this day is one of me trying to keep in my own center. It has been rather tumultuous around here. For once, it's not me making it that way.
Michael is a walking mass of force and static anger.
He says he isn't but I dont think he realizes how much he actually is.
Its not easy to live with.
I have been trying to not react, i don't really even let it make my reactions kick in to be stifled. However, it has caused a huge ball of unreleased flaming yuck in my chest. I dont know how to handle it, save for trying to dissolve it my own way. I try to talk to him, but it does no good.
I think It is ingrained. So... then what? If it really IS ingrained, am I willing to live with it for the rest of my life? I know the answer to that. We shall see.
I enjoy my quiet time. I enjoy the sunshine in the windows falling on plant leaves. I enjoy clean spaces of floor, and candles on a stove. I enjoy daydreaming.
I enjoy looking at pictures that inspire. I enjoy getting things done, like Laundry and Dishes... for the clean space and accomplishment they leave in their done-ness.
I am rather surprised at how easy it is for me to be in this situation i am in- I wonder if I have just shut off places of my soul, or if I really am at the point of being more able to be in non-judgement in moments and being in the art of Allowing. I know I am not fully where I want to be, lest I would not be here now, Working on this point, Learning how to be fully my own self and not allowing others to affect me.
My lesson today, that I would REALLY like the answer to - is how to not let Micheal's energy affect my own. How Do I stay in my own peaceful center without letting the angry seething yuck he emits soak into me? Its like I almost want a glitter filled Koi Fish Bubble of dreams around me all the time.
And in this- when I reach the point of self Where I want to be, what purpose will he serve in my life, other than a reminder to stay centered? Unless he grows WITH me in the same direction I am going, we will grow apart. I already don't match him in many of the things he is about- Video Games, Muscle Building, Violence...
He does like family stuff, and he researches things a lot. When he is in his spiritual center, I like it much. I appreciate his calmness. That is when I love him the most, when he is pleasant and calm and spiritual.
That is when I like all people the most. When they are in their heart center.
That is when I like ME the most too. In my heart center.
"Live in your own... be in your shoes, fill your soul with the beauty of you... and then it resonates to others. Be the Light. Stand solid in your Flow. Be your own Beauty by overflowing your grace and gifts. Rejoice your of own self,  Celebrate the amazingness that you are."
Yes.