There are these fleeting things I get.... Thoughts and feelings of disassociation. Disasociation from the community I am in...
See, it's like this- It comes down to being Genuine. I am all for people finding their light, for people helping others, and I know that it takes all kinds to connect with all people. It just depends on the vibration of those looking to be reached, or reaching out. Like attracts like, and all the vibes must mesh.
However.
I have been working with a community that doesn't seem to suit me. It seems rather ego driven and plastic play-pretend.
or maybe its me. It's most likely me....
I think I am at a different vibration anymore and cannot interact with just anyone. I do what I can, but.... *sigh*
There is a professionalism that I would expect from those in service to others, and it is sorely lacking at the center I am working through. Their hearts are in the rite place, i think... but ... discernment is lacking. This could turn out poorly in the end, seeing as how they are putting way too many people together doing way too much... i think. And what I am noticing, is that the ones who are there, many are ego driven and just starting out.
There is a good thought in having an unnamed talent for your whole life, and then taking a class and the light bulb goes off.. but it is another thing to go to a class and decide you want to do that, too- when it's not in your blood.
...when you are there for your ego.. and money.
I can't stay there long.. I can start them a project and then remove myself from the whole thing.
Any ways.. on a lighter note, I am looking forward to a basement filled with creation. A place of zen, inspiration, love and joy. A place of Bohemian Beauty and Goodness.
I am looking forward to brewing things in jars, to creating things to sell, things to share, things to inspire others and help! I am looking forward to Flowing in the Stream of Inspiration Creations! Ahhhh my soul! :D
I look forward to having my plants back, to having a bonsai again and green, growing things.
And its almost Nisu day. Yep.
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