I whine, throw fits, scream, day dream and totally must sound like a lunatic. but... it happens I suppose.
I have been getting more sleep lately - which I LOVE (well the past few nights anyways).
I 'broke it off' with Mike.. I just couldn't do it anymore. Never being connected to the person you sleep next to, share a life with.. it just felt so... brambly all the time. And it's not fair, not fair to either of us to not have fullness in this life- laughter, joy, love, connection... it just has never really been there. It was fun at first, with the fantastic daydreams of Valkyrie and Viking, Ren Faires and Woodstoves. But anyone can have that. When it came to Soul Lodge and Quiet time.. we have always been in opposite, far off places... and that gets distantly irritating after a while.
So, the Universe threw some monkey wrenches and said- MAKE A DAMN MOVE! So I did. Lest I become my own mother... and I was. And that is instant death.
So I changed.
Then there is the whole Pat thing.. but that stays what it is, and that is okay.
Because There's Me. Me, who is sleeping more, not getting woken up 5 times a night. Me, who has the threads of her soul reeled in, breathing well and working on her goals. Me.
Coffee, Vivaldi, Candle, Child.
Yes.. Me.
I have been busting my arse every day to get my business going, I write emails, think new strategies into existence, take and fill orders, make product, look for outlets. I am totally grateful for the opportunity I have at the moment. I Love being given back to, in monetary exchange. I am working for that, in good ways.
so... that is my goodness. Sleep, accomplishments, seeing life go better. *sigh* yay. Thanks Universe.
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