I got this in my email today, one of the things i daily read.
"We would demonstrate to everyone that we are cheerful, that we are optimistic, that we are happy, that we are looking for the best-feeling thought that we can find — and that we've practiced it so much that we often find it. And then, as people say to you, in accusing tones, "Oh, you are a Pollyanna," announce to them, "Pollyanna lived a very happy life."
---Abraham"
I have been told there are 2 Dawns- Facebook Dawn and the 'real' Dawn. Actually this statement is FALSE and based largely on the past 3 years of what has been seen.
The FB Dawn IS the real Dawn.. the optimistic, loving, fun Dawn. The decorated House Dawn. The Magical Helpful, Laughing, Goofy Dawn. THATS the real Dawn.
Not the Dawn that is angry with ex-lovers, stressed with lack of things, beat down with peoples use of her.
That is someone I don't know.
But someone others got to know.
Boy are others going to be a little surprised at the annoying giddiness of the real Dawn upon experience of her.
heh.
(and to prove my point, as anyone who has known me prior to 2010.
;)
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ReplyDeleteBtw, i don't think i said "fb Dawn" and "real Dawn." I believe i said "real life Dawn" - or the part of you i often saw when we were alone. There's a significant difference in terminology.
ReplyDeleteThough the two aspects i experienced were disparate, which was confusing and sometimes painful to see, they are both part of you; just as you can't have light without dark, you can't be able to have positivity, helpfulness and joy without being able to have unhappiness, frustration, and anger.
I think those parts of you just got very separate, because you had to keep up a public persona for your business, but at the same time, your personal life was slowly getting out of your control and going to hell. I think you need to be able to be joyous in private and a raucous bitch in public (selectively, of course,) and hopefully not just completely reject reactions and emotions you view as negative. IMO, if you try to completely throw that part away, it'll unexpectedly boomerang back at you.
I think integration will be much easier when you've got your working and living and social situation sorted out (which i agree you should always positively strive for,) because you'll be more balanced. And i guess that's my point to this wall of text: I think it's not about being all of one or the other but about being balanced.
I'm glad you're feeling better.
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