Ease

Arizona.
I am not centered, so I have not collected my thoughts or meditated. I almost feel like a breeze...
there are birds in the cedars out front of the apartment, they squeek and chirp. I like them.
I also like that I don't feel on edge all of the time, I am calm and at ease.
I stop every so often, and remember that I don't have to be afraid to do anything. The central air is nice, temprature control is okay, if it's warm in the house, Erica tuns on the AC and it cools down, of it's cool in the mornings, she turns on the heat. She leaves lights on upstairs at night so we can see to go up, She is okay with laundry in a pile when it's time to wash it.
Its so nice to cook family dinners that everyone eats. No qualms about anything. Food is food, and it is good.
Sitting at night on the couch watching TV together, going to town, doing normal things. No plan, no rush, no fears, no static. Just family. Just us.
It is good... it is so good.
So at ease. So very, very, good.
I am grateful. and Happy.
Finally a light heart Have I.
Thank you.