new shoes

 

Pretty soon Maggie will be gone. She will be with her father for 6 weeks, Playing with her  friends, seeing family. They will all marvel at her growth....

And I will be here, at home. Quietly.

I will be contemplating Who I Am, and Changing it piece by piece. I want to be this image. I want to wear shoes I like and be comfortable- without thinking of the fit or the practicality. I want to remember my core. I want to be fascinating to myself.

I want to engulf in art, messily until 2 am and come out clean. 

I want to be happy in my skin, I want to laugh and Sing. 

I have plans for the coming year, things are manifesting that I have always wished for. Lots to do then, and in the mean time, live. Try to fill each day with goodness and beauty.

I will have my hands in the dirt at the farm, and I will paint. 

I am finding that the old way of doing things, the old ways means and routines dont work for me any more. Production of goods that are old and stale no longer interests me. I have needed a break, forcing things just makes them tedious and resentful.

So quiet I will be. And good it feels. 

I have needed some new shoes anyways....