surrender

Tonight I am angry.
Tonight I was told my best isn't good enough.
Tonight I hurt.. because I know it is all I can do.
I work every day in a place that isn't good for my heart and probably bad for my health.... to do my best.
I gave my daughter the best home I can, I feed her and make sure she is a happy as I can help with.
...and it's not good enough.
Patrick doesn't know, he doesn't understand. He just wants what he wants.
And Matt has cancer. And people don't want it known, we cannot help because people are being selfish and mean.
And i just want to cry
for hours and hours.
and I want someone to hand me $500 to get maggie a plane ticket to NH
And I want to be able to help raise money for the kids to go to their sick father.


And I am sitting here. Typing, Hurt, Sad and Angry.