Im tired- obviously. I shouldn't still be up. Its a nice cool night.. well, cooler than it has been.
Cable got shut off today, probably yesterday.. because it went 2 months without being paid. huh. never got a bill. So.. i paid it, but i still dont know why i never got a bill. oh well.. ill forget, i always do. until it gets shut off again. *sigh*
im in my apartment- and it's quiet. Save for the 2 cats. I know im over tired, cause I feel sad for Boy Boy being downstairs alone. Hes fine.. I hope. Had a good dinner with Kris, becoming a Sunday Evening Ritual. Its good to have friends I can be around.. even if none of them are my age. Like for real- NONE. maybe 2. *sigh* one younger, and most way older. whats with that? it is me? what DO people my age do? do i know? no... i dont. Maybe the stuff I like is what an older person would do.. I like to be home, I like to run my business, I like to cook and be with my daughter, and sit on the porch and go for little walks.. is that old? I like to feel secure.. maybe because for so long i was a rambler. Still am in places at heart.But I really would love to feel more secure than I do now. My relationship is up in the air, My business is always fluctuating, and my child keeps GROWING! i know, they do that...
i want stability, home bought and paid for, solid life partner who wants the same things i do... *sigh* yes.. apple trees and chickens...
I am way over tired.
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