So much has been going on.. so much to think on, so much to put in order, in line, on paper.
I have been very much enjoying Kat VonD lately- http://www.katvond.net/ Her show LAink. I have watched to episode 3, and it is helpful. She is a young business woman, and looks good to boot. She is inspiring me to be a little more of my outrageous self and color my hair. My herb shop doesn't have to be a stodgy place of boringness and flighty fancy health nuts. I can Have tattoos, i can have colored hair, and yet- i can go back to dirt, grow food, and do good things all the while. My creativity isn't about one thing or another, its about it all. I want my shop to be like her shop- a hot, happening place, full of life and awesome. I want everyone form Buddhists to Druids to feel welcome.. ages from infants through elders to walk through the door and find themselves in a comfortable place of spirituality and enlightened joy. I want to do it UP! to make it amazing, to make it unique and more of a destination than other places around. It is pretty cool as it is, i have been cleaning and working on new stuff in there, got out some old heavy yuckiness. (its really amazing how we work as humans to find our worth. I had an encounter with a person over the past year- that, when i met her i was humbled- thinking, how could I, Me Dawnie, Be cool enough to hang with this person?? But, I come to find, after a year... it was sort of the other way around. I was the one who was the centrifugal force in the relationship, the one more needed for what i had to offer. And you find out so much about people in this business...) I am not perfect, by any means- damn, I'm moody at times and i lack the esteem i need some times, but i try- always i try. I know there have been times i have wanted to throw in the towel, because at those moments, i can't see where this is going- it seems like such a burden. And then something happens that pulls me out of it- I look around. I look for something good. I look for what is next- I knock on another door- because, I know that this life is what i make it. If i were to stay in the humdrum of my fears of what is at-that-moment, then i will create more of that and those circumstances- HOWEVER! If i am to stop, look for a better feeling thing, imagine what that better feeling situation is like- via looks, feels, smells, thoughts, words, interactions with others- the whole scenario- then i am CREATING- IN THAT MOMENT- something better for myself in the future. And so, when those better feelings happen, and those better things that are created BY those feelings i reached for occur- it shows me, reminds me and URGES me to make more good decisions on my thoughts, feelings and imaginings. I am grateful in that moment for those amazing things... and i KNOW that i created them.
and not only the things about creation are amazing- but how SIMPLE the things laid out before us truly are! It is amazing that when something happens in our lives- a situation or circumstance is presented to us- we sometimes cant even see it because we are A) disbelieving that is is FOR us or B) don't even SEE it, because our horizons aren't open wide enough to even think about such a thing. What i am learning is this- there is not ONE thing that is presented to us, into our scope of reality that is not for us! EVERYTHING the Universe presents to us is an opportunity for us to make a choice- 'do i want to do this?' YES! or.. no. I am baffled at the things that have popped up lately- do i want this? YES! YES I DO! I will say YES to this and YES to that and OMG YES!
The people opening the Tea shop in York, The company in Ohio wanting to use our room sprays, the Fairy singer who wants to work with the shop to promote herself.
YES!
Tomorrow i am dyeing my hair again. I will get a tattoo soon, too. i want to - i know it has Acorns & Oak Leaves for Family, Butterflies for Maggie, and .. something. :)
I have been doing art again. Nifty. All of the things i have wanted to do for so long, i am beginning to see and do. I am cleaning spaces around me, i am collecting pieces of stuff and making new things with them. I have hung my artwork in the shop.
I have been listening to the Playlist on the cinnamon Rainbow's website- http://www.cinnamonrainbows.com/ been really loving the Surfer gurl thing.
I really want to find a way to incorporate 'Hip" into 'Spiritual and Herbalist". Hm. and not like Daniel Vitalis. hate that guy.. :/
I don't want to be like Misty Meadows and be all exclusive and stodgy and like... too cool for school with all the fairy and witchy blah blah blah exclusiveness. I want to be Hot, Rockin', Cool, fun, welcoming, and hip. ya know? I need a logo to repreSENT! ;)
Hm.. my truck needs work too.
Lets see what i can do about all this. Ok, Multiverse! It's ROCK & ROLL time!! ;) XOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXO WOOT!
"(its really amazing how we work as humans to find our worth. I had an encounter with a person over the past year- that, when i met her i was humbled- thinking, how could I, Me Dawnie, Be cool enough to hang with this person?? But, I come to find, after a year... it was sort of the other way around. I was the one who was the centrifugal force in the relationship, the one more needed for what i had to offer. And you find out so much about people in this business...)"
ReplyDeleteA healthy friendship/relationship isn't just one way or the other regarding "need"; it goes both ways equally. Sometimes one person needs the other, then sometimes it's the other way around, not static. Sometimes people need different things from each other at the same time, crossing in a constant flow. Just IMO.