Sunday

so, I know that being in a new place is scary, and always has doubts. Ive been here almost 6 months. I've been working and Maggie has been in school, we've moved and had to make a new community for ourselves. I know it took me at least a year to even start to find my good friends in NH. Of course I have doubts. I am rather uninspired as of yet. I have seen and done so much, nothing is really new and exciting, though there are times when I am so grateful for the sunshine and warm. Finally I am out of the dark- and FINALLY I can house and feed us. (barely- but it's getting better).
I miss K, and I miss Brandon, and I miss Eliza.. and I miss the trees and my little Rollinsford community, but. I don't feel like a failure anymore. I don't feel completely stuck and in a dead end.
i am just waiting for inspiration now.
and I we need to figure out this whole school issue with Maggie. the one she is going to is NOT working for us.
anyways.
People here that I have yet to meet are SO different than what I am use to. New England people are RUMORED to be ugly and rude. heh. I think NE has been pigeonholed into BOSTON... or New York. Cause what people think of all of NE is just Massholes driving. ;) New Englanders are genuine. They aren't catty and selfish. Rather communal people who hold each other accountable for their actions. Nice to see.
Interesting to have the comparison.
I want to go to Unity of the Valley today. I am wanting to be brave and go.. but Maggie doesn't want to, and Erica isn't home to hang with her. Oi.
I'll get there. I need to find my own new community, the spiritual one I am use to. Those who get who I am and what I know.
I do love sitting in the sun. I have to say.
And I got an English Long Bow 2 days ago. I LOVE it.
Love. not just kind of.
well.. birds and sun. :)