Peace

I was asked last night why I was being short. and then told not to answer the question. That tells me one thing. Annoyance.
Yea. Well. Sorry...
This life has changed so damn fast. I have watched cities crumble in the past week, and my feet went out from under me. I have attained blissful highs i never imagined possible, and have seen the deepest lows i have ever encountered. all within the span of a few short short months.
I dont want to be that stupid drama Girl we all know and Hate, so i try my best to keep it all to my self. I have quite a load i carry, and I try to be the strong woman i have always been.. but i dont think its the same as it once was for me. (NOTHING, and I mean NOTHING ever use to bother me.. all the stuff would roll off my back. I would not feel anything about break ups, death, angry people.. I was not affected) I am really starting to think my age is changing the way i have to handle things, i think the walls maaay just be old enough to soften now. (Great.. ugh) And It is forcing a change of habit on me. and no matter my kicking and screaming, the Universe will come by with the spiritual 2 X 4 and take me down so i have to do it any ways. And thats ok. Wish I knew what i was supposed to do, so that this ride was a bit easier.
I know i have the tools.. its just a matter of reinstating them. ive kind of left them behind in my bliss lately. well, previous to past Tuesday. But It's ok.
Im glad for the expansion of my experience, I am glad I have been given the chance to feel, to grow, to know.. And I hope I have helped others along the way.
Theres a reason I hide sometimes.
Hm.Reconfigure.. now, where the HELL do I start?!?!?