and then theres this.

Im exhausted. Im wiped out. I am core-tired.
I can do no more. I try. I go above and beyond with the 'shop' and its still not financially where it needs to be. And now the Universe has put an end to it.
STOP
In a miscommunication on stupid FB my landlord has basically said I am done. I owe all back rent and it will be collected.
...(cant get blood from a stone, btw)....
I'm not mad. It was a miscommunication. I have no attachment to it. It is hers. And that is okay. I am afraid of fire. I am afraid of the furnace burning down the building. All I said was I wouldn't turn on the heater. I left out my other thoughts on it because I was tired. She didn't know that. I have left her a book worth of messages on FB, because they are not answering the phone in the office due to the Holiday.
I have been processing this over and over and over since I got her message.

I KNOW that the Universe does nothing for no reason.
I KNOW that all things are in order at all times.
I KNOW that I have gifts and talents beyond what I am putting to good use rite now.
I understand that my landlords are completely stressed under all the pressure from the mills and these apartments.
I know there is more out for me than what I am doing rite now, that I have grown so much in having the shop open, I have learned so much. 
My major malfunction with this whole incident is the static it is causing, the misunderstanding that is occurring because she thought I was attacking her. Not the transition.
I have talked about closing the shop for a long time, and I have been so torn and confused about it. I have tried so hard to 'hold it together' and it just doesn't work financially.
And that is okay.
I will spend the next few days meditating on it, focusing on clear, unattached thought.
I am grateful for Patrick taking Maggs a little longer tonight. I am grateful to have a fully stocked pantry and refrigerator. I am grateful for my health and the beautiful plants around me. I am grateful to be able to take stock of my assets and know I am worth more than I give myself credit for. I am grateful for my teaches and guides and those I am able to help. I am grateful for those I have support from, who Love me and cherish me along my way.
anyways.. I am breathing. I am giving myself 3 days to do so.
Thank you, I love you, and You work so hard Dawn. You are worth all the gold in the world, and you are knowledgeable to the core. You will be okay, and more than you can possibly imagine will come to you in the form of blessings and goodness. The universe supports you. You will fully flourish in this. Hang in there, trust us, and know we are with you. <3 br="br">