disappointment.

so much is going on this week, I am very worn down.
I'm almost empty.
I found out what my landlords had to say about me. It was mean.
I have been so proud to help out around here for so long.
They told my new land lords that I don't get along with my neighbors.
(among other things...)
I have lovingly done so much... so much.
It makes me feel like just... empty and doing nothing.
I know I am going to get angry.
I know I am going to get sad.
I have done so much, out of the pureness of my soul, out of love. For no other reason.
And this. This.
I know people do stuff out of anger, I know everyone has their stuff.
But honestly, this hurts and makes me doubtful of people's judgements...
I know what I have done, so it's almost like when I am through the emotions, it will make me stronger in my convictions.
*sigh*
it just sucks for people to be so shitty.