So... here I sit. I've been packing up all day. Clothes mostly, and bathroom stuff. Maggie has been watching TV. It's getting old. I was hoping to be excited about all of this... Today, not so much.
Today, I just want to be happy. I havn't been, and I am afraid of my future. I hope being at Michael's will be easy and good, like I imagine it.
I just want to be refilled. To be full of joy and excitement.
So I will have tea, and I will look at Pinterest.
Even Facebook is getting old. I am stuck in a rut. the same things every day-
I get up, I take the dog out, make coffee, look at Facebook and email and Pinterest, wake up maggie, take her to school... day.... make dinner, get jammies, read story - bed. Rinse repeat. I can't wait for it to change. I want to be all done. I want to be moved.
I want to center.
I want to meditate, I have not done so in a long time.
I think the biggest challenge is having so much stuff and not knowing where to put it. I know things will be good in a while.
sitting in here, by my desk, makes me feel better, it's helpful.
well.... *sigh*
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