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Imagine Dragons.... Radioactive
and the depression of feared loss is setting in.
SHIT.
not tonight.. not now, I have opportunity, I dont want to shut down.
Please not now.. not now...
such confusion.
please leave me alone - I see why people drink.
This is so difficult.
fuck. if i could sleep now to dull it until tomorrow i would.
but i can't i need to keep working.. i need to be okay. i want to be okay.
find a spark.. find a one good thing.. Reach, Woman... REACH GODDAMNIT IT!
reach. find it. what?
pumpkins? a scarf.....
this pit. my soul. i need to heal. i need to be okay. Maybe i need to sleep.
too bad i wont...