All of these songs I have avoided for so many many years- the things I would shut out in anger (my beloved cover..) 'oh, how stupidly sappy..' I would say. 'He's so dumb'.
They get me. Every day now. I cannot run away from them fast enough. I cannot get away far enough. They seep in. As I walk through TV filled rooms... as they follow me from hidden speakers in Grocery's Ceilings... in Waiting rooms and Convenience stores. I wake from restless sleep eyes stinging with them in my head.
"Say what you need to say..." you would jokingly sing at me. How could I? Whenever I did it came out screaming hurt.
Now.. Every day I stay alone. Once the realization hit, I had to hide. I cry.
...But at least I know WHY I cry now.
So, I suppose that part is okay. (in some horrid evil way)
People drink to numb themselves... If I were to drink, I would lament the truth from my soul like a thousand winds of the highest mountains...
And I could kill us all in the process.
..So I wait.
And I remorse.. I am so sorry.
I hold a box of a thousand band-aids the size of infinite elephant shoes...
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