Morning thoughts..

I always wake up with a million thoughts running through my head, and I want to write them down. But, by the time the dog is walked and fed, the coffee made and the various morning routines done, I loose the umph of them, and well...
What I have been thinking about lately is my shop. Its really pretty. You walk into it, and it is like a eye-full of color and energy. I have never really seen anything like it. I have lately been around, looking at other places, and seeing people. And I have to say- we have something VERY special here in Rollinsford.
Problem is, it might not be here much longer. I am behind on rent, and I dont know how much more my land lords will put up with it. One has made comments that lead me to believe it may be shut down at the end of October. *sigh* I am going to push to get through until after the Holidays, and THEN move it.
I have this slight feeling another couple that owns a local place may want to go in together, we will see. I am having dinner with them tonight.
I spent some time with a new shop owner yesterday. I helped her out a bit with some thoughts and inspirations on what she can be doing better, that may help her. I'm happy for her, and would love to see her succeed, I think she is doing it for the right reasons. Having a shop and all..
Today is a beautiful, Typical Fall day- overcast, cool... Beautiful.
"Happy equinox to all! The 2012 September equinox will arrive later this week, at 9:49 a.m. CDT (14:49 Universal Time) on September 22"
Thats Nice- Mabon/Madron will be tomorrow. Saturday. Thats a good celebratory day, rite?
I will have the Tea Station up, and maybe I will put out the extra pumpkin bread I made.
I have been thinking about Reputation.
You have to build a reputation, in order to succeed in this business I am in- shop business.
People need to know they can come to you- they need to have a 'feeling' when they do come see you. I think I am doing well in this area. I don't want to be ego driven, I just try to be nice to everyone I meet, and try to give them a definition of who I am. I want them to feel comfortable and know their resource.
I know I was born on-purpose. And, I feel best when I am genuinely helping someone who needs it. (well, and when I am creating candles and things in my back room ;)
So... Madron. Beautiful, Beautiful Autumn. Ahhhhhh.... So good.
I wonder how I am going to be able to keep the shop open. hm. What a good question that is.
I guess it starts with a decision. (Which is that I want to stay open until at LEAST after the Holidays).
I know I need to dig my plants up before a hard freeze if I am not staying... something to take into consideration.
Michael got some extra money this week as a bonus- his boss appreciates him and the work he does. So, we have money banked for moving. If we found a place rite now, we could put a deposit down on it and go within a month.
I am trying to savor the last bit of quiet alone time I have... I am quite reluctant to move in with other people, but I am hoping it works out for the best. I love Michael dearly, but, as I have sarcastically told him, I dont like to share. I NEED my own space. I have got to have a place where I can shut others out, and NOT have them looking at me, touching my things. Women need their mystery. Seems stingy, but it's not- it is my way of refueling, in my own way, because I give so much- I HAVE to have a way to refuel myself. Alone.
So, if we get a place- it HAS to have a spare room for me.
Also.. I don't like the idea of sharing my Kitchen. My kitchen and my kitchen tools are sacred to me, it is where I work my magic- I SO understand why my mother was the way she was...
I think I had the yard, and she had the Kitchen and her desk.
I don't want to become ugly and resentful like my mother...but I can see why she was the way she was. I understand the whole 'nap-rage' thing she went through, because I have had that. *shudders*
Well.... off to be something and so more of the Miracle working things I do every day.
Now- PAY for yourself damnit. Please. so we can stay open.
~Me