this Process and Doors

What a beautiful morning.
Dark clouds, clear patches, rising sun, Raven's call.
Found a raven's feather this morning. It feels like someone before me had it, but the Magic is there none the less.
So much ... paths... opportunity.
There are of course, two sides.
One, Closing such a beautiful place. It is a crying shame to shut the doors to such a magnificent shop, to a place where, when you walk through the front doors, the world becomes whole and magical again. A place that lifts and rejuvenates the soul. A place of community, that has been build of pure faith and determinations.
On the other side...
If I was not to have the shop, I could choose my days off. I could have Product in many different places. I could do classes out of 3 different, maybe 4 different shops. I could hold events at my home, I could go to Ren Faires, I could wash Laundry. I would be home to make bread. I would have a better opportunity to help other shops in the area Expand.
I have been handed an offer to open in Somersworth, but I am unsure of that. I don't know that I want to be tied down in that way. And it's rather expensive for the space. But I DO like the people, so I would like to see what I can do to help them succeed. I may offer to set them up but have some OTHER person run it. Someone who has had a business before. I cannot imagine who, seeing as how I dont know who they work with- BUT. I can help.
I also have had the inkling to print up business cards for such a service, but also ...life-coaching.. as people put it. But not. I will find a new name. Soul-Path-Light-Helper-To-Finder... haha something like that. I am a great organizer of events, so I can help to hold and promote events. I already have a 'Name' for myself, so I totally have the way to do things. I am grateful for that for sure!
In closing the shop, I Will open pathways for myself to travel, to assist the community (the magical as well as my town), I will open time to make and sell my product in many locations, I will be able to be home for my family and for myself, as well as actually bring in an income. This is a great thing.
I think the hardest part is the comfort of the shop for 3 years and then - bam! gone. ALL my hard work... moved. It will disperse into many different directions, and expand exponentially. It is a matter of me just looking at it in the expansion mode, and not the loss mode.
Love or fear.
Love in that I can do so much more in the wider aspect- fear in that an icon will be missing...
Missing from one spot- but dispersed into many other venues! (even if that feels like me just trying to make myself feel better. I have worked so hard for so long on this project, for it to not be there feels like i failed, which i did not. I did it, and i learned SO much and it put me into the community i have always wanted to be a big part of, and i have the opportunity for expansion. Sitting as is, is stagnation. Let me go out and do my good work. I have shown I can do it, and the financials show that not here is the time/place for this rendition. I have built a reputation, good reputation, because I know I am here to help, and so I can go out and do so. Opportunity, Windows, Doors.)
More to come....
Well, thats all I have to say for today.. i think




 Sept 31st
UPDATE: I received THIS Email yesterday. Sept 30th -
"Dawn, oh my god! I can't say how much I love you in this message. I cannot imagine what my life would be like right now if I didn't come into your store off my moped that one rainy day to buy, "herbs" You prescribed me some flower essance oils which have literally saved my life. If I wasn't on this vibration god wouldn't have been blessing me as he has. I literally enrolled back in college full time. Quit my terrible job, only starting hanging out with friends who are true and on my vibration. I also have the most unbelieveable consciousness. I started mediatating and focused on my dreams as you told me to write them down. I dreamed for two weeks about how i needed a car badly but had no spare cash. I mainfiested school, and found out I was awarded 9000 financial aid, my previous GPA being a 3.2 is good but 9k??? Right, so I focused every night about having a newer reliable Honda Civic 2 door, great comuter car, awesome on gas. I imagined driving it and it being blue. Two weeks later I got a refund check from the difference in school for $2,800 dollars cash money in the mail. I HAD NO IDEA THIS WAS COMING AND STILL DONT UNDERSTAND HOW I WAS AWARDED THIS GRAND MONEY!!? ALso i went looking at all these local cars, and none of them were panning out. Two weeks later I needed something I couldn't get up to USM for school without a car. One rainy day much like today I was on craigslist and found a young girl with a 2003 Honda Civc 2 dr, blue who was moving to England in 10 days, got a job. I called -emailed and looked at the car, she accepted an offer for 2400. I purchased the car, my dad then seeing all the postive choices I had recently decided to register and insure it for me. I have had god enter my life lately on so many levels. I am truely blessed and want you to feel the energy in what I am writing. You are amazing. There is so much I have to learn but your help has completely changed the way my mind works and thinks. You make me want to virbate on the freq. of L.O.V.E! I love you Dawn! Your such a beautiful perosn, and when I think of my life I feel so blessed that I was able to connect with you. I can't imagine how many other people you have helped and it makes me so happy!

Take care! See you soon!"
This came from a young man named Pat. I remember his eyes. They were so sad, depressed, broken. I remember him reminding me of Shane- he was so disconnected. But I did my best any ways.... and, apparently it worked.  This is him now. I almost didnt recognize him.
....I think I am doing something right. Now. Just to sort out the details.
Commmmon Universe- show me the details! How shall this be done? ;) Thank you.