Saturday..

Maggs is sleeping, nap time. She is all of a sudden having a hard time, she thinks she is too little to play the games we will be doing today, and she misses her dad. Hm. Last night we were up until 11:30. Thanks god she is napping.
My mom's grand opening is today, we start at 5, but the band is setting up its area, and the fire department is washing the street down with their truck. There is a little farmer's market going on across the street, and people are out and about. Looks like the word has goeetn out, which is SUCH a good thing.
Im not is such a good mood, i wish i was cooler :) Like, you know, cool geeky twitter users. My phone doesnt even do text.. not that i really need it, it might be fun, though. I think when i go home, i may be loking into getting a different phone and stuff. I am actually going to have a real job, too! Where? dunno yet, Edward is putting in for me at the shipyard, whatever he can, and aside form that- who cares? Money coming in is money coming in, no? I mean, i dont want to be miserable at my job, but i can take a job until i am in the field i want to be in.. which is.. uh.. ummm... (is there one that the job description reads - "Become a blissfully married woman, stay home with your kids and have wonderful weekends and vacations with your family! Act now and we will throw in the added bonus of your husband being an all encompassed spiritually connected, super brain, amazing man!")
Hahah.. anyways. I have spoken with the rest of my family in NH and they agree that i should come back, and of course they are super supportive, and i am glad. I know... i know... i just thought this would be different. i ned to quit thinking. I am wondering if i can even trust the questions i ask. who knows.
I am going to miss having my own house, i love having my own kitchen that i dont have to share with a ton of room mates and stuff. I love having decorated how i have wanted to.. aside form what Maggs wants, of course.
i know i have an issue with Stability, i wish i didnt!! I really loved being at Steven's, but as soon as the threat of the house getting sold came in, i damn ran...even though i knew somewhere inside, it wouldnt get to that point. CRAP!
I have also realized, in watching the people around here, that i am not really a farm girl at all, im a hippie- a silly, happy, loving hippie! Upon getting down here, i am not southern at all! jeez. good to know. *rolls eyes*
anyways... i was thinking of just continuing the trip out to AZ, but i am not set up for it. Maggs is too little, and Steven is still in NH... can t go without him! So..
This will all happen as it can, its not hard- it only took 2 days to get us here, itll take the same to go gome.
Im going to try to do stuff in the mean time, keep myself occupied, until we have the money to go back. we need $2,000. to get back safely. The sooner i can get it, the sooner i can get home. I have a start towards it.
so, onward we go!