I guess its not so odd, its just *rolls eyes* i dunno.. idiot drama stupidity that i have LONG out grown. Its really amazing that i am so young, and yet older than a woman my mothers age.
I have come to the conclusion that if we dont have a place to live- oh well. Its not our fault, i have done my part, and continue to do so. i have done nothing wrong, my "mom" is a massive grudge-holding drama-queen. I have come to the calming conclusion that- so what? I know that i have a million friebnds that would help me out in a pinch, and that i haev a lot of places to stay- i know i have real friends. I know i am a friend to many, because i know we share the love :)
So, without going into detail.. i know its all ok, and whatever.. i've come past letting the drama here bother me. i am understanding that she is not f the same understandings that i am, she is not enlightened, or awake to her soul... and thats ok. I AM, so.. thats all that needs to be, and i have GOT TO make sure to remember it all.. all of my training through teachers of all shapes sizes adn creeds. I have GOT TO re member all the things i have done all the places i have been and all of the learning through experience. It may be hard, considering my emotions run SO deep- but i know for sure it is all ok.
Bottom line is- if this all goes sour and horribly wrong, or just doesnt work- its ok.
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