....*sigh* has far to go.
Been talking to Mr. Lane lately, always an elusively good time. Sean is the best, love his grumpy ass to pieces.
It has solidified for me that I want to be in a real relationship. I guess with the lack of what should have been in my relationship over the past few years, an understanding of what I do want has been grounded. Didi that come out rite? who knows...
it feels like-
I am getting older, Bullshit aside, and I just want to be stable. I really think (think seems more solid than feel), that my experimenting days are chilled out, that I would like to continue to Explore this world, but from a more stable vantage point. Sean says I should look for someone who has at least 50% of the qualities I am wanting, but not look so hard, and quit trying. Sean is confusing but makes sense at the same time.
I am Pisces. I have this enduing need to belong to someone, and yet be as free as possible.. and Im sick of it. I would just like to find my one to roll with. To fall asleep in their arms..to have a family with, to celebrate Holidays and have morning coffee with.. someone who is attractive physically AND spiritually. but not a wuss. No new age hippie wimp.
maybe hes rite, maybe i need to just close my eyes and wait. and not think. heh. yea rite.
anyways.. must do shop work today. made some orders yesterday and i am happy about that :)
Maggs was sick yesterday, fever and such. Today she is better.. and I am glad. :)
yea.. over and out.
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