So.. today is my first day of being 'single'... and what do I want to do? Sleep.. Its a perfect day to snuggle up in bed, read books.. so nothing. But.. the duties of a parent state otherwise. I love my daughter. She just turned 5. I remember 5 a little. I remember Kindergarten.
Single. A blank, open Doorway to my future.. the future i write about, the future i dream about...
I love the idea of the image of the white, clean, blank door in a white, clean almost spanish doorway (for its whiteness)
Isaac initiated the conversation i have avoided for so long, I am so grateful. We are so different in lifestyles. But we tried.. and thats all you can do. i am grateful for the expansion of horizons our time together has brought us both. He knows what it will be like to have his real family, and I know what it is like to be in a better place than we grew up.
I have yet to re-adjust my energetics about all of my life.. it kind of hasn't set in yet. It will.
He got a job offer in New York City. He knows I could never live there... and I know he should never be asked to give such an amazing opportunity up for anyone. A kid from the dirt- with NO schooling, a drop out- being offered a job next door to Wall Street.. Hello! no brainer here. I am so happy for him, even if he turns it down. but to be sought out for something like that- jeez!!
Me, I will continue on here in Rollinsford, Running the shop., bringing community together, Helping people on their life paths..
after I get back on track with my own.
I guess Im not really OFF track, I just have some energy I havnt felt before to process.. Magic will help, Intention and Candles will help...
I realize i really havnt processed, I can't even say what i mean.
It will work itself out, the Universe never fails Me.
<3
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